Today is Monday and it was a tough weekend with bf and the family. bf swore at me the first time and I was shocked. I did not eat as well as I could of, but still did better then if I was not doing ww. I think I will put alex and bf in a room together with me and we can work out how we are going to make this relationship work for all of us. i am tired of the fighting.

I told bf that he needed to go back on his medication and work through his challenges, because enough is enough. he can't blame is job for everything and needed to make his life work. i seem to be the one that he is making suffer and i hate that. not another matt in my life. depression can really hurt someone.

I have lost two pounds on ww in the two weeks that i have been working on it. the first pound may of been a lot more but I did not weigh in until the start of the second week and guessed at the first weight, worried at what it would say. So i will take the two pounds and the starting point and go from there. i did measure myself and will do that at the end of the month of november and see if I can see any changes. i so need to get smaller and feel that i have started on that path right now!!

working out has gotten better now that my workout partner is back in full swing and meets with me daily when we both can. Keep it healthy and my mind will stay healthy too.

well, i best get back to work. I am going to work harder at keeping my office clean and do one project a day on my to do list if not more to finish the list by year end and get focused on camp, marketing and financials. We will have a great year ahead of us with better training, baby program and working on saving every single dollar to pay off the bills more and more.

Last year almost all of my credit cards are gone, and now I need to get the line of credits down this next year. An easy feat I think if i work hard every single day and keep a low expense life and watch payroll and everything else. i can do this and will do a great job at the line of credits and not using the credit cards so much. one day at a time.

as for bf, not sure we will make it, but will give it a shot. i liked him once, hopefully he will get his shit together so i can continue to like him. ugh.